I was going to make resolutions this year. But it has been since the early 80s since I did so. I think I will swear more and complain more. And for a thrill I will grab my own ass just to add spice to my life.
February 4
A facebook friend posted 2 photos of herself at 20-21. Getting married. My mother married at 19 in 1943.
I guess it is a thing on facebook right now to post photos of yourself at 20 ish. Not sure I have a photo of me at that age but think this one is close- me and my brother in the 70s.
Then it got me thinking- I never even dreamed of marriage or weddings. Always made me kinda o nauseous/ nervous thinking of someone there all the time telling me what to do. At 13 I remember hoping it was in my control and I could make it not happen. Same with having babies. But I do love children.
Years later I had a boyfriend and we drove his 2 children over the bridge to visit with his parents. I was standing in the dining room looking at a bowl full of lottery tickets. Day dreaming as usual about wearing a bathing suit without pubes sticking out . Then I overheard his mother's voice say " You're not marrying THAT are you?"
I was startled- who had that thought. Not me. Though in retrospect it hurts.
Most little girls I imagine dream of wedding days etc and dress up like that when they are 10 or younger. I liked dressing up in the black crepe dress my mother had for funerals. Not dreaming of funerals. First funeral I remember was 1953-1954 when my grandfather Moore died- I was so sad. I just liked black and it was a cool accordion pleated skirt.
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February 10
a long morning of errands
recycle
Orleans Whole Foods - picked up 2 teas using Jer & Kar's Christmas money. Genmaicha and Echinacea Plus with elderberry. The clerk was chatting with a woman who apparently had a pair of handmade gloves with her . He sneezed a huge sneeze behind his barrier.. He asked me if I knit the things I had on. yes- hat, belt and legwarmers. Adding it prevents me from killing. He said well doing anything to stop that is good. I answered but I would rather it was sex. But I am too old. He quipped that he was celibate. As I left I asked him to let me know when he is no longer celibate and I will drop by again. Left feeling good. LOL
Bank- cashed check so I would have money for lottery and laundry. Those 2 things are getting expensive. The bank now has large smooth stones in their garden out front. I have not used the front entry for awhile as it was slanted and awkward walking.They look like prime things to take home.
Hot Chocolate Sparrow- got a 5.00 gift card and gave it to the floral woman in Star Market. And thanked her again for the free rose that was till doing well! She said you did not have to do that. I answered. If I had to do it I likely would not.
Staples- got speakers for my laptop LogiTech. 30.00 using Jer and Kar's Christmas money. I had to ask where they were. the tech clerk walk to the aisle and pointed abs said on the left. Well you have to have eyes on your knees or the top of your head to see things. Finally found them just by looking for a price of $29.-
Star Market- miraculously they had everything on my list
Library- well returned Fleabag and the last Broadchurch. asked where Midsomer Murders was located. I could not see the Ms. Library clerk walked to the shelf and said there are many- I would say! almost 2 shelves. I will have to make a list and tick them off as I see them. woo ho.
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April 4
I feel it is important for us as fellow humans to stay informed on all the ways other humans can be thriving or suffering. Be it diseases, mental health, religious and spiritual beliefs, gender & sexual issues , politics and financial hardships and homelessness. So we can be more sympathetic with someone's plight. Lessen name calling and labeling. It is not necessary to get deeply involved , just be aware of our differences and how we are all basically the same.
April is Neurodiversity Awareness month. Many advances have been made in identifying and offering support. Support is crucial for the neurodiverse among us to function in this already busy and confusing society.
People should not feel they have to "come out" or "identify" or even admit to any differences they experience. We should all feel free to be ourselves without being singled out.
as with everything these days no one seems to agree to a day week or month to celebrate this so. all in good humor
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April 6
I cannot seem to get a conversation rolling on facebook. Likely people think it is taboo or weird. Just my natural curiosity. The brain and mind are fascinating to me.
from facebook and I deleted the post LOL
on the way to food shop the windshield was covered with::rain,snow,hail & sleet all at once,.Back here and unloaded the groceries. Inside I could see rain sleet snow and hail on the kitchen windows. The sun came out briefly. I need a nap and some sun!
The nap was otherworldly. when I woke I felt unsure of what time of day it was -I was after lunch a little before 2pm I think. Then I started winding tarn into a ball and decided to delete ha ha ha Or people could be busy with their own lives,
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April 9
filled that BINGO card! my song, though I could not listened to it over and over, I do turn it on when I need it. Unholy- Sam Smith
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